Lists

I am a fanatical list maker, I can't help myself. I make list for my list. I make list of list. The first thing on my list is usually to make a list. I am a neurotic freak. But, if I put it on paper, what to do , how, when , how to feel , how to move forward and on. Eventually I will get it done. Finishing my teaching credits has been on that list for almost 10 years. Along with , to stop pysching myself out, I can do it whatever I am pysching myself out about. My list has a note to BE KIND to myself. If I can get it all out what I need to do and be , I can empty my mind. Lay in the grass and have a mental nap of sorts, feel its green, sweet scented blades and drift into a well deserved nap because my Lists are done, for now.